Life can never be suck than what we meant it to be. People we thought will definitely understand us is just another bluff. No ones care no ones know. The misery stays alone. And again in its own darkness. When we try to put our hope so high in the sky we fall smashing to the ground leaving not even a piece of humanity. I have lost my wise and no one can turn it back. Maybe someone can, who actually care?

Thousands perhaps million of people graduated with these fancy degree in their hands learnt that they can help people accepting who they are, trying to sort of bring back to the light of humanity. But they forgot that even that degree is just a piece of paper. I, myself own my very own fancy degree but it does not help. I hate the fact that i possess that degree.

In return I have to adapt to this society. This society who always hoping something from you. Don't they know that I just hate doing that? Let me do my things, the things that I really want to do and then you, Society don't ask me what can i do for you.

Things are going to change, but personally  I'm not sure what kind of changes might it be. And I hate myself for that. For a second I try to think whether God is still with me or am I the one who just turning myself from Him? I've lost myself drowned in my own imagination. The most fascinating imagination I've ever had. No one in my dislike are there. But hey? That's the fact. even my beautiful imaginary world always been "Welcomed" these dislike annoying people.

I hate my self. I just want to be normal but I can't. I want to do what I want but I failed . Is this the end? This is the end of my suffering but also the beginning of my self-destruction. Let me go so that I wont be the burden to this life, this family, this society even to GOD.